damn sian...

shacked... just came back from work... firstly, why must yesterday rained so much and why must i be so suay, had to skid and sprained my leg during work... it damn hurts now... but it might also be a good thing cos the pain deviates my mind from other stuffs... secondly, why in the whole world everybody asking me to repair their computer at the same time? fuck sia... do i really seems to have no life to u all, even if it is so can't i just stay home and rot than to help u... can't u just engage a technician? is nik the only one who can do it in the whole singapore? or u just enjoy exploiting me cos i'm f.o.c? anyway i also wondered wats really happening, i juz not myself for the past few days... things start to bother me again... sooo don't like that feeling... frens was like asking why my face so sian... many times i tried to cover up with stupid and lame jokes and forcing myself to wear a smile so as not to spoilt others' mood... but its so hypocritical... i also have the rite to be sad isn't it? sometimes i wonder why must i always think of others before me... i guess the only answer is i'm borne with this character... is being considerate a bad thing sometimes? sometimes i wished to be pampered too u know? is asking for a little bit of care and concern too much?