love. an abstraction?

what is love? is it that warm fuzzy feeling inside of you when you think of a person? is it that happiness he/she possesses that seemed to have infected you? is it that uncontrollable jealousy and indescribable low you experience when he/she’s laughing gaily with his/her friends? is it that immense tension that arises, because of you suppressing your feelings for him/her? is it that incessant pain you feel when he/she ignores you? or is it a bit of everything?

it is strange how some people get into love so unbelievably easily, while others have not even the slightest idea what it is after 21 years of life. i belong to the latter, sadly. love is both the strongest quality and burden of man. love is an abstract concept that is elusive, and yet it exerts its presence ever so forcefully. controlling love is, in my opinion, impossible. however suppressing it is plausible.

met a friend, throughout the day, every single one of his actions were oriented towards pleasing the other and yet not getting reciprocated. from him, i could see myself. i could see how my emotions were controlling me. i could see how i was playing myself down. i could see from a third person’s perspective of how foolish i was. perhaps love isn’t everything. perhaps what everyone says is right? perhaps love is peripheral? is it time i step out of this illusion? it is time to live, not as a person chained by emotions, but as an intelligent entity capable of suppressing emotions.

it will be no doubt difficult. a song dedicated to u.