yawn... what's happening to me...

darn it... me damn tired imagine going without sleep for 24 hrs... was working nite shift yesterday... and was manning the counter for one whole nite without sleeping... yesterday wasn't fantastic for us when one of my colleagues woke up in the wee hours of morning to answer a call... which proves bad new... his family called to inform that his brother just passed away in hospital... it was like all too sudden for him to handle... he just had to rush back to malaysia immediately...

me just woke up with only 4 hrs of sleep... i didn't really fall asleep either... why? so many things happened recently and i don't know what happened to me either... pple are asking am i ok... have many talks with frens, and their words just hit me hard... its like i'm getting series of low self esteem attacks!!! i hate this feeling... it just made me more emotional and paranoid... which had never occurred in my life... my poly times is like my most glamorous time, i hope i can regain my lost confidence and get back on track... perhaps all these mark a new chapter of my life... and perhaps i just have to go thru this and make me a real adult... i really hope things will be better by tomorrow after a nite sleep...