is everything just a dream?

sigh. bloggy how i wish to be u sometimes. the twists and turns in life are always so unexpected. there are so many questions running through my mind. but where are the answers? am i a good boyfriend? am i a good friend? am i a good project manager? am i a good student? am i a good son? am i fit to lead? have i communicate enough? have i tried to understand things? have i tried to see things her way? have i given my best? have i been making her life miserable? have i been making her cry? have i been in the right state of mind whenever i talked? have i been consumed by the devil? have i been making things better? how can i make things right? am i always wrong, or have i ever been right to begin with? is everything a test? how long will this test last? or will it ever end?