君が好きだと叫びたい

i love you, and not in a friendly way, although i think we're great friends, and not in a misplaced affection puppy dog way, although i'm sure that's what you'd call it. i love you, very simple, very truly. you are the epitome of everything i have ever looked for in another human being, and i know you think of me as just a friend and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you'd ever consider. but i had to say it, i just can't take this anymore. i can't stand next to you without wanting to hold you, i can't look into your eyes without feeling that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels, i can't talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are. and i know this will probably ruin our friendship, but i had to say it cause i've never felt this way before and i don't care. i like who i am because of it. and if bringing this out tonight means that we can't hang out anymore, then that hurts me, but God, i couldn't allow another day without getting it out there regardless of the outcome, which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shoot down, and you know i'll accept that. but i know, i know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, and if there is a moment of hesitation then that means that you feel something too, and all i ask is that you please not dismiss that, and please try to dwell on it for just ten seconds. there isn't another soul on this planet who has ever made me half of the person i am when i'm with you. and i would risk this friendship for a chance to take it to the next plateau, because it is there between you and me. even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that i am forever changed, because of who you are and what you've meant to me.