i can never be myself again

as we walk through life, we are constantly met with various meetings and partings. we are constantly on the move experiencing exciting new encounters and painful farewells. we will constantly be faced with the challenge of bidding goodbye to things we value and love.

and it's because we love, that we hurt. and i find myself constantly telling myself i will never love again, i will never love again... because everytime i love, the hurt, in that moment, seems too hard to bear.

however, human beings are more resilient than we believe ourselves to be. and we always go back to loving people... because people don't have the capacity to withstand loneliness... so we search for love, by loving. the love may not be manifested in the same form each time to the same person, but people will go on loving.

and that fills me with hope for tomorrow, because the tears of tonight will dry and pass on like the pain that was endured, and i will once again set out on my quest to love and fill my life, as well as the lives of the people around me with more hope and meaning.

it's difficult to leave a lot of things behind and lose the ones we hold dear to us. sometimes in life the saddest partings allow us to separate and break free from the past, with all its sorrows and memories, to embrace everything the future holds.

perhaps i should give a little more, and never stop giving.

no love is in vain.

neither is any pain ever in vain.