to give, or not to give up?

happy children's day everyone... hey today's awesome. the kids are so cute... i swear they can bring a smile to anyone by just looking at them. sweet innocence... i love it. yay my passion to serve and help is back. it had been quite some time since i last rendered my service. God gave me hands so that i can help the less fortunate. i'm feeling both ashamed and guilty. the orphanage kids are so cute. and the autism children are those that we should help the most. they are like 'living life behind glass'. i'm so looking forward to next week. oh darn it! this also reminds me that my term break will officially end tonight... before i forget, lynn thanks for listening to me.

sometimes i just get soooo tired of doing certain things...

there are many times when we get plain tired of doing things. of getting things right… or at least trying to. how do you explain that something that felt so right and that was so right end up in flames?

see, i think… it’s the same with everything we set out to do. exams, relationships (with man and with God), studying for exams etc. we are always subconsciously asking ourselves: ‘to give, or not to give up?’ should we just throw in the towel and do something else? something easier and less tiring?

sometimes i ask myself, does it pay to be different? because if it isn’t then i really should just allow myself to be like everyone else… just flow with the crowd man... even when you’re among the ‘right’ crowd of people and you’re different... it makes you feel like you don’t belong and sometimes, you’d wish that people love you even more for your differences… but sometimes they just make you stick out like a sore thumb and that just really is annoying.

k, that paragraph didn’t make sense. just ramblings.

but at the end of the day, i choose to believe that there’s this light at the end of the tunnel… no matter how weak and tiny it may seem right now, if i just keep walking towards it, i’m going to come out basking in the full glory of it.

now, would you walk along with me?