stamford bbq

firstly i would like to thank my mummy, daddy and my darling jie for helping me out with the bbq if not i don't think things will run that smoothly... anyway this is gonna be a foto blog so peeps pls be patient and let it load first k... be patient lah... lousy pigg...

my khakis - me, peng seng, jiafa, koon thye

how dare u complain bout the chicken wings i marinate... #$&%^**#

my xiao de that's always so understanding... but lousy at groceries...

ex-ah beng and ah lian... look at her figure... she's already a mother of 1 kid liao...

introducing my new boyfren, why u so shy sia...

my first attempt to smoke a crabstick...

oh my god... my baobei corn... who did this to u? own up u horrible pple...

kaoz say wat wanna see my hp then push me inside the pool... damn u all smart ass... i remember i was also forfeited to go inside the pool last time by someone when i lose a tennis match... hmmph...

a sexy pose i'm force to make... evil u all... wat if i get famous one day... omg

guess all of them had their fun on ME, so a group foto to end the memorable nite... don't worry we will meet up soon... i promise...

interesting for guys to ponder, for the ladies to judge

Young King Arthur was ambushed and imprisoned by the monarch of a neighboring kingdom. The monarch could have killed him, but was moved by Arthur's youth and ideals. So the monarch offered him freedom, as long as he could answer a very difficult question.

Arthur would have a year to figure out the answer. If, after a year, he still had no answer he would be put to death. The question: What do women really want?

Such a question would perplex even the most knowledgeable man, and, to young Arthur, it seemed an impossible query. But, since it was better than death, he accepted the monarch's proposition to have an answer by year's end.

He returned to his kingdom and began to poll everybody: the princess, the prostitutes, the priests, the wise men, the court jester. He spoke with everyone, but no one could give him a satisfactory answer. Many people advised him to consult the old witch, only she would know the answer. The price would be high; the witch was famous throughout the kingdom for the exorbitant prices she charged.

The last day of the year arrived and Arthur had no alternative but to talk to the witch. She agreed to answer the question, but he'd have to accept her price first: The old witch wanted to marry Gawain, the most noble of the Knights of the Round Table and Arthur's closest friend! Young Arthur was horrified: She was hunchbacked and hideous, had only one tooth, smelled like sewage, made obscene noises, etc. He had never encountered such a repugnant creature. He refused to force his friend to marry her, and have to endure such a burden.

Gawain, upon learning of the proposal, spoke with Arthur. He told him that nothing was too big a sacrifice compared to Arthur's life and the preservation of the Round Table.

Hence, their wedding was proclaimed, and the witch answered Arthur's question thus: "What a woman really wants is to be in charge of her own life."

Everyone instantly knew that the witch had uttered a great truth and that Arthur's life would be spared. And so it was. The neighboring monarch granted Arthur total freedom.

What a wedding Gawain and the witch had! Arthur was torn between relief and anguish. Gawain was proper as always, gentle and courteous. The old witch put her worst manners on display, and generally made everyone very uncomfortable. The hour approached. Gawain, steeling himself for a horrific experience, entered the bedroom.

But what a sight awaited him! The most beautiful woman he'd ever seen lay before him! The astounded Gawain asked what had happened.

The beauty replied that since he had been so kind to her when she'd appeared as a witch, she would henceforth be her horrible, deformed self half the time, and the other half she would be her beautiful maiden self. Which would he want her to be during the day, and which during the night?

What a cruel question! Gawain pondered his predicament. During the day a beautiful woman to show off to his friends, but at night, in the privacy of his home, an old witch? Or would he prefer having by day a hideous witch, but by night a beautiful woman with whom to enjoy many intimate moments? What would you do?

What Gawain chose follows below, but don't read until you've made your own choice.

Noble Gawain replied that he would let her choose for herself.

Upon hearing this, she announced that she would be beautiful all the time, because he had respected her enough to let her be in charge of her own life.

What is the moral of this story?

The moral is: If your woman doesn't get her own way, things are going to get ugly.

nik's theorem : truth to make our lives 100%

A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
is equal to
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

then hardwork =
H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K =
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% only

knowledge =
K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E =
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% only

love =
L+O+V+E =
12+15+22+5 = 54% only

luck =
L+U+C+K =
12+21+3+11 = 47% only

then what makes lives 100%?

is it money? ..... no

leadership? ..... no

every problem has a solution, only if we perhaps change our attitude...

to go to the top, to that 100%

what we really need to go further, a good.......

attitude =
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E =
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

it is our attitude towards life and work that makes our life 100%

woof... shiok... i love doing groceries...

today's a hectic day been out since 7am to go for a stupid talk at ubi... and wat makes one fed up is to see a L-plate guy drove like sissy... damn... and finally i felt STUPID today... guess wat i left my keys at home and so i am STUCKED outside my door for 1hr plus before my brother came back... i'm always so yaya papaya lor saying things like this will never happen to me de... and always nagged at my brother whenever he forgot the keys... hehe... guess i'm getting old liao ba... hehe...

after that quickly changed and went to meet that siao char bo to shop for BBQ stuffs for this sat at my place... she damn funny lor plus an idiot in handling the trolley... banged into other aunties... and getting attention all over... don't think she does groceries at all... spent 2 hrs at the ntuc hunting stuffs... ranging from menses pads to... erm... *zip mouth*... and oh boy i had such excellent knowledge on all the different brands of pads... i'll make a good husband... *blushed*... u girls ought to be impressed by me... hoho... after that grab a drink and talk cok... and she helped me get the stuffs to my house... thxs hor didn't know u are so "strong"... hoho... and then sent her back lor to show my appreciation... seriously thxs for the trip don't think i can manage without u today... =)

to my dear jie: pls help me buy marshmallows leh... if not sat u cannot come back... >.<

thxs peeps...

first i would like to say thxs to all the frens that had been showering me with all the care and concern... thxs peeps... muah... love ya all... anyway yesterday was a bad day for me... cos feeling damn sick lah... fainting spells, nauseating... whenever i opened my eyes the planet seems to be spinning wildly... maybe first pregnancy is always like that de, especially my laogong is not around... hoho... heng today i feel much better le... hee talked to irene quite a while just now... thxs for ur concern hor... appreciate it... =) talked bout many things and oh ya that cute girl that add me... which is irene's fren... wat a small world... and oh irene the "chu yi" and "shi wu"... only u understand rite? keke...

and yah some updates on me... i have started clearing my leave for my disruption... which means i have 2 months to enjoy before my "hell" resumes... will try to organize gatherings i think... will catch up with u all b4 u peeps start to nag at me again... NTU i'm coming... oh my hostel life is so tempting especially when i hear stories from my sis and frens... oh man i gotta be more disciplined...

and tomolo maybe shopping for stuffs for this coming sat BBQ... missed my primary school frens very much... especially when u think of the good old times we spent together playing marbles, basketball, magic cards and rubber rubber?? hehe... and hearing the all time favourite ring tone - recess bell, all the running to the canteen to see who reach there first... the time when we climbed the gates and kena discovered by the gardener... the time when we entered girls toilet... the time when we threw water bomb on each other's birthday... the time when we catched grasshoppers after school... and the time when we stood outside the principal office... it was a time when all of us were so pure to each other, it was a time where true friendships existed... such sweet memories that will follow me till the day i leave this world...

haiz once again another 23rd of the month...

Juwita Suwito - Breathe Again

have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new
never knowing where you're going
when you face a brand new day
it used to be that way
now i just close my eyes and say

i just want to breathe again
learn to face the joy and pain
discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
live a little more
i just wanna face today
forget about the worse of yesterday
maybe if i hope a little
try a little more, i'll breathe again

starting out again is never easy
disappointments come and go but life still moves on
with a bit of luck, it's a brand new start
that might just work my way, no need to walk away
don't want to live on life replay

i just want to breathe again
learn to face the joy and pain
discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
live a little more
i just wanna face today
forget about the worse of yesterday
maybe if i hope a little
try a little more, i'll breathe again

things will work out fine
if you can find the courage to look past the night
to see the break of dawn

i just want to breathe again
learn to face the joy and pain
discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
live a little more
i just wanna face today
forget about the worse of yesterday
maybe if i hope a little
try a little more, i'll breathe again

what's L.O.V.E?

what do we actually mean when we say "I love u"?

how much do we value the word "L.O.V.E"?

what does L.O.V.E means to u?

http://www.dictionary.com defines L.O.V.E as:

1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness...

2. A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance...

for wat i see in the 2 definitions... "A", "Feeling", "Oneness" it's always singularity! you don't fall in love with two person at a time, dude! that's not love! that's lust! and L.O.V.E is ought to be felt not said...

*sighs*

i'm starting to feel very agitated now... i better stop...

*signs off*

wat a surprise...

today went out early to see doctor... after that collin called and so we decided to meet up... we met at bugis and damn him make me wait so long... in the end i got gastric... haha... after lunch we went to nayang academy of fine arts to meet carol, kris, bin and rinn at TCC for coffee... another session of craps and jokes... keke... then a surprise came... my fone rings... and a shock came to me upon hearing thot is a joke... the person told me i am shortlisted by a company involving in nano technology... asked me come for interview... omg i was really shocked... feel like head hunted... damn happy lah an opportunity indeed... but i'm going to uni soon scare opportunity go away or cannot cope... but who cares get some details first cos its nano-tech lor such a new technology, imagine NANO-TECH OMG and my dream also... am suppose to meet them tomolo but i will be working my last 2 duties so i told them cannot... so in the end decided to meet at sat after my japanese class to get the details...

tips & tricks, what boyfriends should look out for

situation:
11.05pm, guy and gal were chatting happily, when guy uncontrollably yawns...

bad example:
gal (sounding out): you feeling sleeping?
guy: yeah, tired from work...
gal (sounds concern): ok, shan't disturb u, go and sleep lah...
guy: ok, you have an early nite too...

guy hangs up the phone... 5 mins later, phone rings...

guy (awaken by the phone rings): helo?
gal: .............
guy: who's this?
gal (feeling unjust): you felt very bothered by me is it?
guy (confused): huh? what?
gal: .............
guy: why? what happened?
gal: you find me very bothersome is it?
guy: bothersome? why you said this?
gal: ..............
guy: what's the matter? how would i know if you dun say it out?
gal: we are chatting halfway, and you yawn, and went off to sleep...
guy: b...but, you are the one who ask me to go to sleep...
gal: you already said want to sleep already, what else u want me to say?
guy: haiz... if you wanna chat, just say so... what for tell me to go sleep, and feeling unhappy in the end?
gal: since when i'm unhappy?
guy: isn't this unhappy? ok ok, i won't sleep the next time, will that do?
gal: what's the point? i want you to chat with me willingly, and not because afraid that i will be unhappy...

in the end, guy spend another 30mins comforting gal...
actual sleep time is 11.40pm...
plus the earlier argument, he did not have a good sleep...
what worse is that gal may argue with the same thing again the next day...

good example:
gal (sounding out): you feeling sleepy?
guy (tired vocal, but sound interested) : abit, tired from work. but you have not finished talking, carry on, i will be listening...
gal (felt consoled): orh, but since you are tired, go and sleep then (still sounding out) never fall into the trap and hang up the phone...
guy: there's no afternoon break today, indeed more tiring... how abt i give u a call tomorrow morning... let's chat awhile more ok? (tells the reason, and offer make up measure)
gal: oh ok... go and sleep now, you must be tired...

gal is willing to let guy go sleep, but guy must do a bit more than this...

guy: so what time you are going to sleep?
gal: not sure, probably a bit later...
guy: ok, but not too late, not good for health... i will be heart pain one hor...
gal (feeling loved): ok lah...
guy: i love you the most! (even if eyes are shutting also must remember to say this impt words, else all effort wasted)
gal: i loved you too, have a good rest! (happy till can float liao)
guy: ehmm...

gal hang up the phone...
in the end, 11.10pm sleep...
guy sleep peacefully, and probably a morning call from gal the next day...

conclusion 1:
female wants feeling and care... most of the time, female's logic cannot be figure out with a reasoning mind...

conclusion 2:
say a few more touching words, concerning lines, will save you more than hours of precious time...

conclusion 3:
when encounter the above situation, must always let the gal hang up the phone first... else it will be disastrous...

conclusion 4:
if your gf isn't like the one in the example, then congrats to u! treasure her! but if otherwise, dun accuse her of being unreasonable... what she wants is very simple...

G.T.O - Shizuku

subete no hito wo aiseru wake ja nainara semete aisuru hito o
     if you can't love everyone, at least do not
uragi razu ni utagawazu ni semetari nikundari shinai de
     betray, suspect, accuse, or hate the ones you love

mujyaki de irukoto ga hito o kizutsukete shimau no
     does being innocent mean that i will hurt people?
shizukana jounetsu ga hitomi no oku de sawagi dasu
     a quiet passion begins to stir within my eyes
anata ni meguri aete
     after meeting you

kobore souna namida no tsubu
     teardrops are about to fall; i don't let them
nagasazu mune ni tamete
     holding them within my heart
isshun o tsuyoku iki yo ichizuna shizuku ni natte
     live each moment to the fullest; become a focused drop

junsui na aijou ga itsu atte dareka o madowa shiteru
     pure love is always leading someone astray
akiramenaide inori mashou sekai ga tatoe kurayami demo
     let's pray without giving up, even if the world has turned dark

jibun ni hokoreru tatta hitotsu o mitsuke dasou
     let's find the one thing that i can be proud to myself about
kotoba ni dekinai yume ga ryoute ni afuretemo
     even if dreams that i cannot put into words fill both of my hands
dare nimo somaranai yo
     i won't let myself be affected by anyone

hateshinai toki no naka de jibun ni nani ga dekiru
     what can i do in these neverending times?
ima wa mada chiisaku demo kagayaki keseya shinai yo
     even though the spark is faint right now, you can't put it out

suidou no karuki ga shinku no fuchi ni tamatte
     the tapwater's chlorine deposits have accumulated on the sink's edge
sonomama tokesou ni nai
     and doesn't seem like it'll ever dissolve
kagaku kankyou mochiron aijou mo zenbu onaji jigen de kangaeru
     i think of even the scientific environment and love at the same level
nanika hitotsu jibun ni shika dekinai koto mitsuke dasetara
     if you find the one thing that only you can do
hoka ni wa nanimo iranai desho sorega saikin wakatte kita desho
     you need nothing else, right? you've come to realize that lately, right?
ookina gan no youna tokai no sumikko de
     from a corner in the city that's like a huge boulder
nani ka o sukoshi zutsu sukoshi zutsu sukoshi zutsu kaete ikitai
     i want to change something, little by little by little
dare ka o honki de shinshoku shitetai
     i want to infiltrate someone for real

kesa no terebi wa tooi dokoka no
     this morning, the TV was showing
nikumi au dare ka o utsushiteta
     people somewhere far away who hated each other

hateshinai toki no naka de jibun ni nani ga dekiru
     what can i do in these neverending times?
ima wa mada chiisaku demo kagayaki keseya shinai yo
     even though the spark is faint right now, you can't put it out

kobore souna namida no tsubu
     teardrops are about to fall; i don't let them
nagasazu mune ni tamete
     holding them within my heart
isshun o tsuyoku iki yo ichizuna shizuku ni natte
     live each moment to the fullest; become a focused drop

sian... tired... sad...

just got home not long ago... yesterday work nite shift tired tired out... anyway have u ever had this kind of situation... when u felt troubled and just wanted to talk to someone yet there's no one to turn to... no one to lend u a listening ear... no one to hear ur woes... no one to console u... it's a sucky feeling... and in the end u just have to stuff everything back into that "bottle" in ur heart again... even though there's not enough space to hold everything... that's ur problem! cos in this harsh society one just have to squeeze everything into that tiny chamber... not even realising how much more that small "bottle" can hold before it finally crack and shatters... the happenings recently just force me to evolve into another person... a person that shall keep things to himself regardless of anything... a person who will only share the good things with others but not the bad things... pple just likes to hear good things and not criticism... why live in a world of self deception... many things happened unknowingly and its just seems like another natural flow... why do brothers changed too? friendships never lasts. relationships also never lasts, the only thing that will lasts is kinship... wat a reality... whether it's true or not only time will tell... nik is tired out... gonna catch some sleep before i go work again tonite...

oh my god radicals scan...

sianz going to work soon in another hour time... gonna work till next morning... means no sleep again... sobx...

anyway earlier on went for a radical scan with my mummy and jie... its a thing whereby they used a device to scan ur palm for 3 minutes and they will detect the amount of free radicals inside a human body... indicating whether each of us have an adequate intake of anti-oxidants in our body... u may ask wat is anti-oxidants? so let me briefly explain one use of anti-oxidant is that it will slow down the self damaging process of the body... and also the ageing process sounds good huh? girls sure will like to know more bout it rite... u vain beings... lolx... aiya i am vain also... and among us my mum has the best readings... and obviously i and my jie is not having enuff intake of anti-oxidants fruits... anyway it isn't the amount of fruits one eats a day but more of wat types we take... we shld eat more fruits of red colour... like tomato, carrot... and just having fruits is not enuff also... we must make sure it is absorb into the body and thus we need to understand how vitamins works and how different vitamins will complement with other fruits... hence its like a combination thing... like for calcium work best with vitamin D... so no matter how much amount of calcium one takes... if the body lacks vitamin D u will still have brittle bones...

k enuff of all the health thingy... the best thing happened in my life again... the other time the wind blew up the skirt of a girl in front of me and oh my it was COOL... and today the similar thing happened again... while i was taking the scan a girl come in front of me and pulled up her skirt and oh boy i see everything again... god is nice to me... anyway she's only ard 3-4 yrs old... where are u all thinking to? lolx... and i think i blushed cos my jie say my face red red leh... is it how can that be possible i wonder? lolx...

and yesterday jap class wasn't that fantastic cos it was taught by a new sensei... and one word to sum it... sucks... i was like studying myself lor thru out... wat the hell i pay money to study myself... wat an irony... but i still managed to make the class burst into laughter with my nonsense... i shld join jack neo crew man... jack neo if u're reading this i want to join u...

26 things a sweet guy would do

1. know how to make you smile when you are down
2. try to secretly smell your hair but you always notice
3. stick up for you but still be respectful of your independence
4. give you the remote control during the game
5. come up behind you, put his arms around you, squeeze you tightly against his chest, and whisper softly into your ear
6. play with your hair
7. his hands will always find yours
8. be cute when he really wants something
9. offer you plenty of massages
10. dance with you even if he feels like a dork
11. never run out of love
12. be funny, but knows when to be serious
13. realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious
14. be patient when you take forever to get ready
15. react so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts
16. smile alot
17. plan a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally do just bcos he knows it means alot to you
18. appreciate you
19. help others out
20. drive 5 hours just to see you for 1
21. always give you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each other's company even when friends are watching
22. sing even if he can't
23. have a creative sense of humor
24. stare at you
25. call for no reason
26. quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs just bcos he loves you enough to quit

questions and answers

firstly let me post the answers to the quiz or else i will be cursed... cos some of the crazy ones spent every nite thinking for the answers... lolx... i got 4/5 correct... how bout u? anyway let me blog bout collin or he will say i never blog bout him... hehe... yesterday collin, carol, leine and me have dinner together near my place... and have lotsa of craps and jokes... seems like the 2 frens of collin also cannot stand me liao... cos i crapped non-stop and non-stop... ranging from tables, rubbish bin and humans? oldenlandia drink? lolx...

1. A murderer is condemned to death. He has to choose between 3 rooms. The first is full of raging fires, the second is full of assasins with loaded guns, and the third is full of lions that haven't eaten in 3 years. Which room is safest for him?

Ans: the room full of lions, cos lions that had not eaten for 3 years already died

2. A woman shoots her husband. Then she holds him under water for over 5 minutes. Finally, she hangs him. But 5 minutes later they both go out together and enjoy a wonderful dinner. How can this be?

Ans: first she shoots a foto of her husband, then holds the picture under water to develop then hangs the wet foto to dry

3. There are 2 plastic jugs filled with water. How could you put all of this water into a barrel, without using the jugs or any dividers, and still tell which water came from which jug?

Ans: freeze both jugs of water

4. What is black when you buy it, red when you use it, and gray when you throw it away?

Ans: charcoal

5. Can you name 3 consecutive days without using the words Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, or Sunday?

Ans: yesterday, today, and tomolo

yeh finally above 95 points...

first of all got back my japanese results liao... a whopping 96 points... ask me happy or not i also don't know... no one to share my happiness too... and its my last level to go before i going for my JLPT preparation class... gonna endure till end of this year... hope i can manage my university work and my japanese... god bless me... but the sad thing is my fellow frens are not following me till JLPT... my xiao de, zhong de, da de, shin san, kah yeow, jinson san... and ah lian why must u quit now... i will be bored to death when u not around... i know school is stress nowadays... the most i let u copy my papers from now on... pls stay... and the sad thing is my sensei also returning to korea liao... gonna miss her... yokoyama sensei ii sensei desu ne... korekara ki o tsukete...

then today went dentist to check teeth lor... doctor wash wash teeth... haha then the dentist siao also keep on asking me questions... i how to reply his questions when my mouth filled with all the equipments, blood, saliva... hehe... and once again cavities free teeth... i shall make it a habit to visit the dentist... and wat really "make" my day is that xin hui... anyway i told u i gonna badmouth u in my blog... neh neh neh bu bu wat can u do... its my blog... she kpo lor go help pple repair simi computer... then say like nice lah call me... in the end i call ur hp cos is free incoming free... lolx... and she's damn cute lah... especially the things she asked me... u shld know... i don't want to throw ur face here... keke... and we r like on the fone for at least 10 hours minus break time and minus the time i kup her fone... cos u make my day mah... my this month fone bill 10% ur share let me tell u first... i bet u learnt new things today rite? haha think my computer skills are quite zai liao... i am haolian... hehe... i also learnt something... my troubleshooting skills on fone improve too... thxs ah xin hui... i not scolding u lah here... cos u really make my day mah... didn't know u also so crap from the day i know u from SMU entrance... lolx... anyway come NTU u poke... u see i liked blogged too much on u liao... wait all my da xiao zhong jealous le...

the most sian thing is i gonna work till 9pm for 2 days straight... sian... fast forward my days in may pls... then i gonna enjoy my 2 months break... ice skating u remember not... keke...

love. an abstraction?

what is love? is it that warm fuzzy feeling inside of you when you think of a person? is it that happiness he/she possesses that seemed to have infected you? is it that uncontrollable jealousy and indescribable low you experience when he/she’s laughing gaily with his/her friends? is it that immense tension that arises, because of you suppressing your feelings for him/her? is it that incessant pain you feel when he/she ignores you? or is it a bit of everything?

it is strange how some people get into love so unbelievably easily, while others have not even the slightest idea what it is after 21 years of life. i belong to the latter, sadly. love is both the strongest quality and burden of man. love is an abstract concept that is elusive, and yet it exerts its presence ever so forcefully. controlling love is, in my opinion, impossible. however suppressing it is plausible.

met a friend, throughout the day, every single one of his actions were oriented towards pleasing the other and yet not getting reciprocated. from him, i could see myself. i could see how my emotions were controlling me. i could see how i was playing myself down. i could see from a third person’s perspective of how foolish i was. perhaps love isn’t everything. perhaps what everyone says is right? perhaps love is peripheral? is it time i step out of this illusion? it is time to live, not as a person chained by emotions, but as an intelligent entity capable of suppressing emotions.

it will be no doubt difficult. a song dedicated to u.

Cagnet - Hear me cry

you couldn't say needed someone new
you actually thought deep inside i knew
can you tell me
how can you say
why this should suffice

you passed me by and your heart as cold as ice (you passed me by)
did you see me cry (did you ask yourself why)
did you see me cry (did you ask yourself how)
can you hear me cry (did you ask yourself)

will we ever grow apart you, you couldn't say needed someone new
and you actually thought deep inside i knew
i wonder where we will go
will we be the same (you passed me by)
i laugh inside i think of you and the love we made (you passed me by)

tell me why this should suffice i hold you through the night
now will i let it go
soon i'll let it go

can you hear me cry (will you ask yourself why)
can you hear me cry (will you ask yourself how)
can you hear me cry (will you ask yourself)

will we ever grow apart you, i'll stand by your side
i'll be there for you (you passed me by)
you, i'll stand by your side
please just do me right (you passed me by)
you, i'll stand by your side i'll be there for you

why the change... kutabare na...

life hasn't been smooth sailing for me all this while... not gonna talk bout other things anymore... aiya the past few days is like hell to me... and this hell is not gonna end at all... no amount of complaints help... got home at almost 11pm everyday... cos my shift changes... can only leave at 9pm if i'm "lucky" enough... damn the shift... the worse is i gonna have my dinner outside and can't eat with my family... sobx... can't they change after i disrupt... anyway first day of work was the worse, got a real bad headache and also felt dizzy in the morning... then thot of taking off but in the end still went to work... thot can tahan... then the headache got worse... and perspiring cold sweat when on call, got a feeling like want to die like that... i told myself gotta hold on... cannot fall now... wat made it worse is the constant fainting spells... like going thru pregnancy like that... maybe watched too much first mums on channel 5 liao... and really have no appetite to eat at all that day... bought breakfast and lunch but cannot even complete half of it... and even felt nauseating... gosh wat's happening to me... luckily the temperature girl at the hospital offered me medicine... really appreciate it... and i actually don't wanna take the medicine de but in the end really cannot tahan liao then i took it... only get better for a while and the thing comes back again... wat made it worse was i gonna work till 9pm everyday duty... and after duty took my dinner outside and still i cannot eat finished... got no appetite… it's really a terrible feeling... and only got a bit better yesterday... yesterday got many many calls and was like working every single minute... sibei jialat... and got home ard 11:15pm... so sian... i so hate the shift cos i can't see my parents, can't do things as usual, can't do things i want... fuck them... everyone is complaining bout the shift... they think we got no life is it... and saturday is my japanese promotional exam... i have no time to study... can i make it? i haven touch the books till now... cannot believe i'm still blogging at this crucial moment... ganbarinasai tomodachi...

Rebecca - フレンズ : Friends

kuchizuke wo kawashita hi wa
mama no kao sae mo mirenakatta
poketto no koin atsumete
hitotsu zutsu yume wo kazoeta ne

hora are wa futari no kakure ga
himitsu no memorii oh

doko de kowareta no oh friends
utsumuku hi wa mitsumeatte
yubi o tsunaidara oh friends
toki ga tomaru ki ga shita

nee kimi wa oboete iru
yuubae ni yoku ni au ano kyoku
damarikomu kimi ga itsumo
kanashikute kuchizusanda noni

ima toki wa nagarete
sepia ni somaru merodi oh

nido to modorenai oh friends
tanin yori mo tooku miete
itsumo hashitteta oh friends
ano hitomi ga itoshii

doko de kowareta no oh friends
utsumuku hi wa mitsumeatte
yubi o tsunaidara oh friends
toki ga tomaru ki ga shita

nido to modorenai oh friends
tanin yori mo tooku miete
itsumo hashitteta oh friends
ano hitomi ga itoshii

let's homa to president wee kim wee...

wah the trip to boonlay was such a torture wat a journey... phew... i would die if i don't have my mp3 player... so shocking to hear the news when i get back that Dr. Wee Kim Wee, ex-president of singapore have passed away... in my memories he was a good president... k let's homa him guys... homa... anyway put the sad things aside... i got some quiz below for u guys to think... will reveal the answers when? when... ah when i finish thinking also... hehe... k the idea is to make ur brain juices work...

1. A murderer is condemned to death. He has to choose between 3 rooms. The first is full of raging fires, the second is full of assasins with loaded guns, and the third is full of lions that haven't eaten in 3 years. Which room is safest for him?


2. A woman shoots her husband. Then she holds him under water for over 5 minutes. Finally, she hangs him. But 5 minutes later they both go out together and enjoy a wonderful dinner. How can this be?


3. There are 2 plastic jugs filled with water. How could you put all of this water into a barrel, without using the jugs or any dividers, and still tell which water came from which jug?


4. What is black when you buy it, red when you use it, and gray when you throw it away?


5. Can you name 3 consecutive days without using the words Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, or Sunday?

sugoku tsukareta ne...

morning peeps... yawn me so tired now slept at 3am yesterday... received a msg from esley at that time also... thot i am the only one siao but she also siao wan so late still haven sleep... guess wat... she said i'm cute... oh my is my msg cute lah... hehe... =) anyway going out soon... going to boonlay... sian another 2 hours journey... sobx... )= and its gonna be part of my life for another 3 years... why government cannot build NTU near to me just like the NTUC over there... keke... i am so in loved with the song playing now... need to listen to it so many times before i go out... k lah will update more when i come back...

Maison Ikkoku - 好きさ : Suki sa

suki sa shibireru hodo
     i love you, to my stupefaction
suki sa kuyashii hodo
     i love you, love you with compunction
osoreru mono wa nani mo nai
     there's no longer anything to be fearful of
suki sa wasurerarenai
     i love you, i can't just dismiss you

kiriganai (nai) amai kuchizuke o
     we had to stop (stop) our own neverending sweet kiss
kaze ga muri ni hodoku
     when a sudden sirocco flew by
tomaranai (nai) atsui tokimeki ni
     i cannot stop (stop) all the heat that comes from my heart
namida o misenai de
     please don't ever let me see you cry

suki sa shibireru hodo
     i love you, to my stupefaction
suki sa kuyashii hodo
     i love you, love you with compunction
omoitsumereba kurui sou
     i can't go on cogitating without going mad
suki sa hanashita kunai
     i love you, i'll never let go of you

kaeranai (nai) anata no hada nimo
     you can't just stop (stop) to save your skin and go back
yoru ga shinobi konde
     for the creeping night has come unwarned
shikatanai (nai) wagare makiwa ni wa
     we shouldn't stop (stop) no, we shouldn't ever split up
mukizujya irarenai
     for we can't get out of this unharmed

nikumenai (nai) tsumetai shigusa wa
     why don't they stop (stop)? frozen hard expressions of cold
aenai totsurakute
     that i feel here when we are apart
yarusenai (nai) anata no sono koe
     oh, please just stop (stop) melancholy words of despair
kokoro ga koware sou
     do you really want to break my heart?
suki sa suki sa
     i love you, i love you