vexed

dear bloggy i abandoned u again...

my last entry is like one month ago...

this is evidence of my hectic life...

no doubt i am hardworking...

nah on the other hand being diligent is not a good sign for me...

cos i also don't know wat's happening to me...

i get mood swings nowadays...

i swear i hate it...

why why why? someone pls tell me... anyone?

i don't have pms wat...

i don't use whisper or sofy leh...

(note: this is not targeting at any particular brand of pads)

or is it a trial set by Him?

i am not like that during poly days...

then how to explain my actions and thoughts now?

i wonder...

is it her?

is it my friends?

or is it my family?

or rather is it my own expectations?

i feel stifled...

i am gald she is always there...

my friends are also going through the same shit as me...

and no doubt my family is supportive...

i guess it is my own expectations...

i have this problem, i cannot accept compromised work...

so this makes my life difficult...

i definitely cannot expect my members to put in the same effort as me...

we are just individuals...

each with our own set of vision, thoughts and priorities...

looks like i must learn to tone down my high expectations...

if not life will continue to be haywire...

haha... grumbling helps... i feel so much better...

i thought analysing a computer is cool...

but it's even cooler to analyse my own thoughts...

anyway to all my dear friends out there...

i shall see u all soon after this battle...

take care...

let's suffer together ba... hehe...