vexed
dear bloggy i abandoned u again...
my last entry is like one month ago...
this is evidence of my hectic life...
no doubt i am hardworking...
nah on the other hand being diligent is not a good sign for me...
cos i also don't know wat's happening to me...
i get mood swings nowadays...
i swear i hate it...
why why why? someone pls tell me... anyone?
i don't have pms wat...
i don't use whisper or sofy leh...
(note: this is not targeting at any particular brand of pads)
or is it a trial set by Him?
i am not like that during poly days...
then how to explain my actions and thoughts now?
i wonder...
is it her?
is it my friends?
or is it my family?
or rather is it my own expectations?
i feel stifled...
i am gald she is always there...
my friends are also going through the same shit as me...
and no doubt my family is supportive...
i guess it is my own expectations...
i have this problem, i cannot accept compromised work...
so this makes my life difficult...
i definitely cannot expect my members to put in the same effort as me...
we are just individuals...
each with our own set of vision, thoughts and priorities...
looks like i must learn to tone down my high expectations...
if not life will continue to be haywire...
haha... grumbling helps... i feel so much better...
i thought analysing a computer is cool...
but it's even cooler to analyse my own thoughts...
anyway to all my dear friends out there...
i shall see u all soon after this battle...
take care...
let's suffer together ba... hehe...