shade of greys

sometimes i just felt threatened...

guess that's life?

For with thee is the fountain of life: in thy light shall we see light - Psalm36:9

我要的幸福

为 爱情付出

为 活着而忙碌

为 什么而辛苦？

我 仔细纪录

用 我的双眼

在 梦想里找路

该 问路的时候

我 不会装酷

我 还不清楚

怎 样的速度

才 符合这世界

变 化的脚步生活

像 等待创作的黏土

幸福

我 要的幸福

渐 渐清楚

梦想

理想

幻想

狂想

妄想

我 只想坚持每一步

该 走的方向就算一路上

偶 而会沮丧生活

是 自己选择的衣裳幸福

我 要的幸福

没 有束缚的幸福

我 知道我要的幸福

就 在不远处

上 帝是你在呼唤我吗？

a day

omg.

anyway saw this guy slapping his girlfriend at the interchange.

isn't it a bit overboard?

what did she do to deserve this?

even though if she really did something wrong.

is there really a need to slap her in front of so many people.

this only shows how low his emotional quotient is.

i almost wanted to go over and tell him.

"helo mister that girl over there is your girlfriend, not a punching bag"

you're supposed to love and pamper her, not slap her.

really felt like punching him at that point of time.

spoilt my day. =(

*digress*

anyway today's topic is on relationships.

let's learn how to be a better lover. =)

to me love is a beautiful thing.

it's amazing how fate works.

don't u think so?

it always fascinate me how two persons from different walks of life meets.

the process is worth reminiscing.

from strangers to acquaintances to friends.

and to someone you want to protect with your life.

love is a two-way relationship, a special bond built by the two.

never take your partner for granted.

more often we should give more than we recieve.

once any party is taken for granted, the relationship will start to turn sour.

it's only a matter of time the giving party wakes up from this dream.

don't be afraid to be sweet or mushy.

it's not a disgraceful thing.

and it's definitely not a childish thing either. (applicable to guys only)

you love her so be yourself.

respect your partner, he/she is not perfect.

no one is!

perfection is impossible!

accept it!

it's always good to let your other half knows what you thinks.

cos he/she wouldn't know what you are thinking of right?

more often we only change for our own sake.

but it's not a bad thing to change for the one you love too.

if it's changing for the better why not.

but it takes time for a person to change.

therefore this transition period is the toughest.

i believe he/she will see the effort being put in.

let it serve as a test for the two.

listen!

always listen to what he/she has to say.

this will mean that you shown interest.

he/she will definitely appreciate it.

ask questions if you don't get it.

and digest what you've heard.

learn something from what you've listened.

and use it to improve your relationship.

but how to use it to improve the relationship?

it's simple, try to discover his/her likes and dislikes on things.

therefore, the relationship can be improved in this sense.

anyway it is applicable to friendship too.

nevertheless it takes two hands to clap.

i strongly believe in giving your heart and soul in a relationship.

if you are not satisfied with your current relationship.

don't go looking for another one.

work on your relationship.

for the chances that the next person,

will be significantly better than this one are remote.

the reasons are simple.

when couples get together, it's because of the fresh feeling.

eveyone loves that kind of feeling, including me.

but how long can this kind of feeling lasts?

once the honeymoon period passes, the feeling just dies down.

love is just like a car where maintenance is needed.

it's also about being able to accept each other for who he/she is.

give everything that you can in the relationship.

after all by entering into a relationship you agreed to it.

i believe feedbacks and suggestions from each other is important.

especially in a relationship.

its the key element to foster a better relationship.

it's also important to voice out on our dislikes on certain things.

cos nobody is perfect.

most of the time one wouldn’t voice out.

as they are afraid it will hurt the other party.

but can you imagine if a balloon keeps taking in air.

till a certain level, it will burst.

and that's the worse situation that every relationship should avoid.

lastly, this entry is entirely from my own perspective.

i believe each of you also have yours. =)

God bless.

Point

a point is not really a shape...

anyone who thinks a point is round is mistaken...

a point exists so far as interconnecting lines exist...

yet lines and everything else...

all other shapes and bodies, are made up of points...

a point is the essential invisible, the unmeasurable inevitable...

God himself may be a point, solitary and remote in His perfect eternity...

time and circumstances doesn't dictate who gets to stay in your life...

the bond created by the persons you meet far surpasses...

the amount of time which you have known each other...

by just being able to accept each individual you have known...

in one way or another has already enriched your life in some...

it's not by chance nor coincidence...

it's predestined that we meet...

destiny decides who you meet in life...

but it's only the heart that can decide who stays in your life...

lost...

i wanna complain!

why must i be deprived of so much...

just what went wrong...

so many things happened...

my india is gone...

and now even my special semester is also gone...

the school don't allow me to take...

what the fuck...

what am i gonna do in the coming 3 months holidays?

i didn't plan anything for myself...

my friends told me to stay home slack...

but is it possible?

i don't seem to have any aims now...

its so funny when i say i don't know how to do a thing...

others will just say i don't want to teach...

such an irony...

omg...

spare me...

missing u...

praise the lord

my lord...

things haven't been going well for me ever since the start of the year...

is this one of the many trials u have for me?

i wish miracles will happen on me once again...

just liked last year, i believe its only a matter of time right?

anyway thought of many things yesterday...

mixed feelings...

i thought i am the only privileged one having pms...

but that's not true...

my close frens are having too...

but none of us knew the reason...

we get irritated by the slightest thing...

quarrels came like daily bowels...

for me i told them bout my experience...

i try not to bring the irritable me back home...

cos i don't wanna pick any quarrels with my own family...

or make them unhappy...

cos whenever i see them smile, it just makes me happy too...

whenever i see how my mum played with haoyang...

the innocence just melts my heart...

anyway we came to a conclusion that it's due to hormonal changes ba...

perhaps it all boils down to the word 'stress'...

the stress in school is unbelievably unbelievable...

its really getting worse year after year...

i really pity the kids now cos i don't know what they gonna get next time?

i always knew what i wanted to be in the future...

but right now i feel disillusioned of the path ahead...

countless times i wanted to talk to my parents...

but i just can't bring myself to say...

why?

cos i know they have their own problems too...

just that they don't show it...

i can't be so selfish...

i am supposed to help them, not burden them...

i just can't bring myself to add on to their problems...

i can feel the many different voices that are screaming inside me...

for now i just want more care and concern...

cos it just makes me feels so much better...

the path towards adulthood is so stressful...

i wonder what lies ahead of me?

i don't even dare to think of it now...

happy one year anniversary bloggy!

wat am i doing here at this hour?

pontang?

having my break so came back to my room to slack...

been having diarrhoea for the past 2 days...

sian...

i cannot fall sick now...

and how can i blog when i have tons of stuffs to settle...

cos i just feel bored...

i just want to grumble...

and i simply don't want to bother others with my own things...

so bloggy endure with me ba...

u r my only avenue to vent my frustrations le...

projects are killing me...

i am serious...

my "wonderful" member is also driving me crazy...

she's just fucking pissing everyone in my group...

is your time more precious than mine?

if it is tell me straight to my face...

wat kind of project manager am i?

i can't satisfy everyone...

stress coming from both internal and external...

i shall not mention the details here...

cos its pointless...

i shall just take the shit...

everyone has high expectations of me...

i am not a god, so don't treat me as one...

i wanna see my haoyang now, he can make me smile...

my beloved jie if u r reading this...

pls keep to urself...

i don't want mummy and daddy to be worried for me...

i am fine lah... =)

feel like hugging someone now...

so near yet so far...

haiz...

*digress*

was talking to my xiao xiao de yesterday...

she sounded so depressed...

don't be so pessimistic...

and don't imagine things lah...

it will make it worse...

trust me...

i believe it is some miscommunication...

hope things will be fine for u...

and best of luck for ur o's level...

k lah back to reality le...

though i don't really have the mood to study...

but no choice tomolo got quiz again...

when will this ever end?

haiz...

god pls answer my prayers...

i seek u...