Love Story

爱的故事有很多
你一定听过
她们说
最美的爱情像湖泊

美的忍不住停留
而任性的风
吹过了
却飘下一片片叶落

放开手往北方走
留下伤心的树独自忍受
你离开我连一句话都不说
只默默看着今晚天空星光闪烁

看今夜的流星
划过了天际
笑我的心
我无法再冷静
请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信
我们之间
隔着海洋的距离
我的爱
已融化在空气里

爱的故事有很多
你一定听过
她们说
最美的爱情像湖泊

美的忍不住停留
而任性的风
吹过了
却飘下一片片叶落

放开手往北方走
留下伤心的树独自忍受
你离开我连一句话都不说
只默默看着今晚天空星光闪烁

看今夜的流星
划过了天际
笑我的心
我无法再冷静
请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信
我们之间
隔着海洋的距离
我的爱
已融化在空气里

看今夜的流星
划过了天际
笑我的心
我无法再冷静
请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信
我们之间
隔着海洋的距离
我的爱
已融化在空气里

shocked.troubled.confused.

i didn't have the mood for anything right now. i got the shock of my life. i was talking to junwei 10mins ago. and right now i received a sms from him telling me that his sis and brother in law met with a car accident. no one knows the severity. i heard his brother in law is pretty injured. i pray that they are alright. life is unpredictable.

i didn't know what i was doing. i didn't know what my actions will lead me to. i didn't know where they will lead me to. i didn't know the consequences. i didn't know. i really didn't know. i only know what i did was wrong. i only know things happened in a moment of folly. would you forgive me?

mum's words struck me hard. ぼくのかごです. i felt stifled once again. sandwiched? あなたのかごです. 嫌いです.

どうしますか?

ぼくはじぶんでかんがえている.

sigh. out.

想起你

想起你，笑容总会偷偷地跑出来。想起你的angry face，你长长的头发，就忍俊不禁，笑个不停。

想起你的时候，就是这样情不自禁。可能是你的superpower吧，让我天天期待着想起你。

想起你，有时候也会落泪，心酸。想起你的笑容，你的笑声，你不肯吃东西的样子，就突然很害怕，担心会有失去你的那一天。

想起你的时候，就是这样情不自禁。又笑又哭，又开心又害怕。

可能爱就是这样的，让人变得坚强，同时让人显得格外薄弱。让人充满希望，也同时让人担心感情会有期限。让人付出一切，却让人完全无助。

今天你要嫁给我

春暖的花开带走冬天的感伤
微风吹来浪漫的气息
每一首情歌忽然充满意义
我就在此刻突然见到你

春暖的花香带走冬天的饥寒
微风吹来意外的爱情
鸟儿的高歌拉近我们距离
我就在此刻突然爱上你
听我说
手牵手跟我一起走
创造幸福的生活
昨天你来不及
明天就会可惜
今天嫁给我好吗

夏日的热情打动春天的懒散
阳光照耀美满的家庭
每一首情歌都会勾起回忆
想当年我是怎么认识你
冬天的忧伤结束秋天的孤单
微风吹来苦辣的思念
鸟儿的高歌唱着不要别离
此刻我多么想要拥抱你
听我说
手牵手跟我一起走
过着安定的生活
昨天你来不及
明天就会可惜
今天你要嫁给我
听我说
手牵手我们一起走
把你一生交给我
昨天不要回头
明天要到白首
今天你要嫁给我

听着礼堂的钟声
我们在上帝和亲友面前见证
这对男女生就要结为夫妻
不要忘了这一切是多么的神圣
你愿意生死苦乐永远和她在一起
爱惜她尊重她
安慰她保护着她
两人同时建立起美满的家庭
你愿意这样做吗
yes i do!

听我说
手牵手一路到尽头
把你一生交给我
昨天已是过去
明天更多回忆
今天你要嫁给我

us

i can't remember when it was good
moments of happiness elude
maybe i just misunderstood
all of the love we left behind
watching the flashbacks intertwine
memories i will never find
so i'll love whatever you become
and forget that reckless things we've done
i think our lives have just begun
and i'll feel my world crumbling
feel my life crumbling
feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away
falling away with you

you can tag

tagboard was officially hacked.

so unexpected.

the system sure have plenty of loopholes.

i can finally put what i studied into use.

security & transaction modules. haha.

anyway i want to say thank you to those who called me last night.

i am fine now. =)

am so looking forward to the 18th of nov.

and xie xue er ain't u a cute little thing.

who knows nothing but eat and sleep! haha.

oops i didn't even come to my agenda.

people my new tagboard is still at the same old place.

spent some time customising it to blend with bloggy.

phew. out.

suddenly everything is coming back

home. i am so drained.

i've been sleeping at 3 am and waking up at 5:30 everyday.

anyway left school at 12:15 midnight yesterday.

it was pitch dark.

the thick fog was stifling.

and the silent journey triggered my mind to wander.

i looked around and i'm all alone.

no one in front of me to lead the way.

no one behind me to catch me if i fall.

no one beside me to share the burdens of today.

no one. no one at all.

and it's my fault.

aggravated by circumstances and compounded by a stubborn character.

it has always been a lonely walk.

even though i know there are people around me whom i love and love me.

it has still, always been a lonely walk.

i can't find a way to verbalise it, i can't say it, i can't share it.

i don't know how.

and here i am drowning in my thoughts.

i am human too. you know?

i've been working very hard.

you said time is what i need.

you said you'll give me all the time.

can't you remember that?

i don't need any promises, cos i no longer trust anyone.

i don't need anything in return.

i can't keep trying.

i don't know what on earth is going on.

i have no idea what you're thinking.

i cannot go through everyday.

by wondering, questioning, guessing what's going on.

and hoping silently that i am doing the right thing.

i can't do this injustice to myself.

it's not supposed to be like this.

feeling weak.

i am feeling so drained. i've been feeling rather weak recently. i think i have been overworking myself. feeling nauseating and all. i can even feel my heart palpitating so fast right now. it's not a good sign. i cannot collapse at this period. i just can't. if i can't take care of myself, how can i even take care of the people i love? mum needs me at this period.

sigh. goodbye GIP to shanghai. my best confidant, junwei will be leaving next year. so sorry i can't accompany u. i'm supposed to leave too but the twists and turns in life are just so unpredictable. i'm staying for my family and someone. after much considerations, i realize just how much i needed my family in my life and vice-versa.

frustrated. confused. stifled. dilemma.

i promise i will reply to the tags as soon as i'm feeling better.

thank you peeps for all the care and concern showered during my stay.

let me get my health back on track before anything else.

caren: hey scandal. u better take care of ur health too. u're not young anymore.

nana: i hope u're feeling better le. i know what u're going through. i'll try to get back to u soon k?

xiuting: yup good luck for ur paper if u're reading this.

you: enough. i'm sorry. i hope u will understand what i am going through now.

i'm really exhausted. drawing my last amount of strength.

i've to sleep now. take care peeps.

Why we fail exams?

It's not the fault of the student if he fails, cos the year has only 365 days.



Typical academic year for a student :


1) Sundays - 52 Sundays in a year, you know Sundays are for rest.
Days left 313.


2) Summer break - 50 days where weather is hot and difficult to study.
Days left 263.


3) 8 hours daily for sleep - 130 days gone.
Days left 141.


4) 1 hour daily for playing (good for health) - 15 days.
Days left 126.


5) 2 hours daily for food (chewing & swallowing) - 30 days.
Days left 96.


6) 1 hour daily for talking (man is a social animal) - 15 days.
Days left 81.


7) Exam days - per year at least 35 days.
Days left 46.


8) Quarterly, half yearly and festival (holidays) - 40 days.
Balance = 6 days.


9) For sickness - at least 3 days.
Remaining = 3 days.


10) Movies and functions - at least 2 days.
1 day left.


11) That 1 day is your birthday - how can you study on that day!!!
Balance = 0 day.



"So how can a student pass?"

to give, or not to give up?

happy children's day everyone... hey today's awesome. the kids are so cute... i swear they can bring a smile to anyone by just looking at them. sweet innocence... i love it. yay my passion to serve and help is back. it had been quite some time since i last rendered my service. God gave me hands so that i can help the less fortunate. i'm feeling both ashamed and guilty. the orphanage kids are so cute. and the autism children are those that we should help the most. they are like 'living life behind glass'. i'm so looking forward to next week. oh darn it! this also reminds me that my term break will officially end tonight... before i forget, lynn thanks for listening to me.

sometimes i just get soooo tired of doing certain things...

there are many times when we get plain tired of doing things. of getting things right… or at least trying to. how do you explain that something that felt so right and that was so right end up in flames?

see, i think… it’s the same with everything we set out to do. exams, relationships (with man and with God), studying for exams etc. we are always subconsciously asking ourselves: ‘to give, or not to give up?’ should we just throw in the towel and do something else? something easier and less tiring?

sometimes i ask myself, does it pay to be different? because if it isn’t then i really should just allow myself to be like everyone else… just flow with the crowd man... even when you’re among the ‘right’ crowd of people and you’re different... it makes you feel like you don’t belong and sometimes, you’d wish that people love you even more for your differences… but sometimes they just make you stick out like a sore thumb and that just really is annoying.

k, that paragraph didn’t make sense. just ramblings.

but at the end of the day, i choose to believe that there’s this light at the end of the tunnel… no matter how weak and tiny it may seem right now, if i just keep walking towards it, i’m going to come out basking in the full glory of it.

now, would you walk along with me?